don't wanna be me.

make a guess?am i doing okay?
well,if ur smart enough,you'd say no?well,i'll start right from the beginning.
obs was GOOD.i miss angela to bits..correction.i mean ANGILA..!!heh.i miss her!!!!!!!!she's super fun..its like a six year old in a twenty-three year old's body..hahah.madness.well,she's the one who taught me how to endure pain when i had to carry two jerry cans..

they weren't full mind you.i'm not wonder woman..but one was almost half full and the other was 1/3 full.hey,that's alot for a creep like me k?i've got muscles now and they're freaking scary..eek.anyway..i miss the time we spent under the hut talking when we were stranded out in the rain..ultra bonding time for hillary watch k.heh.was a blast.and angila brought us to the highest point in ubin.it was so pretty i tell you..!! :) well,those were the times that stood out.but i liked the times when we'd talk after our bath..which was like on the first and last day?cuz we went for 3 day land ex.so the time we talked was like super..hehee.sigh obs.i miss it like crazy!!!!ugh.we all cried like babies on the last day.its like the first time i saw alot of ppl cry.like my beloved anna chen and silly eunica.heh.got to know alot of ppl better too. :) okay enough of obs..

dance has been great..we're performing at taka's dance explosion on jan 7th.we're called "flava shakers".i love the name!!mag,our coach said..salt shakers,den i was like "flava shakers!!!!!!"hahha.so come support yeah?hahahs.kidding!!anyway.the rest are so not excited abt comp..but i am..i miss VENOMM!!!!!!!!gosh.miss those lil twirps..if we were dancing tgthr for dance explsion..gosh!!we'd win.heh.we'll i hope this team gets excited and puts in more effort soon..you hear me laogong?tell them to not be so shit abt the comp k?cuz i wanna win..heh

at home,its been really rough.esp last might..dying la.feel like moving out or running away..goodness.maybe it was a good idea to move back to philippines two years ago.den i wouldn't be in such a shit hole.sigh.and i'd be clear of the bastard at home and my love life would have been shoved down the drain with no way up and i'd be forced to start over.cus i jus can't seem to forget..the first and last.for those who know,i don't count my first two r/s cus they were major bull.hmmm.so i guess you know who was the first and last.ugh.watever..i'm such a...i dont even have a friggin' word for it la.it sucks.

schools gonna friggin' suck next year!!!
i cant begin to dread going back to school cus i wanna put it off as long as possible.sigh.this year i fucked up la..i regret.i regret alot of stuff la..reminds me of wat ang said,"dont wish you were "there" when you've got a "here".cus eventually, when "here" works out, you'd wish you were back "there".get it?okay i dunno if i said that correctly..as long as i understand it,its fine..heh..
okay,suddenly,i have nothing to say.cant rmb..stm.

so..this is it.take care.ciao.
"i wanna be with you."

the lyrics to
"goodbye my love" by james blunt is supposed to be here..so go see.